20s Diary

Hi again, people on the internet! Welcome or welcome back to my blog. Recently I been thinking about life after graduation, so for the sake of continuity, I’ll follow up with that topic. I know in my last post I also mentioned it a little bit, but as I said, I would like to write about the specific areas of my life I’m currently in, and well, I just graduated, so here we go again.

I figured it is like the great unknown, like the area of the deep sea where people have not dared to go before. Afterwards, I realized this is not a 100% right as people get here constantly, but for some reason, either the after works out for them, meaning the internship they did offered them a great job that they take, or something like that. However, that is not what happened to me. I have to mention that my degree is not the type, with which, after you know what your field of work is, mine is very versatile, and you are very much expected to go into a master’s, so for now, that’s my plan. The thing is, in my experience, the people whose transition into “real life” is not as smooth, you don’t hear much from them. I hope to be one of the voices speaking up. Anyway, so as I was saying, I was thinking of something I could compare it to so I could make this whole situation more understandable.

I ended up with the thought that it’s actually like the happily ever after in movies. Having said this, I think this happily ever after situation can apply to different moments in our lives (not just having graduated with a BA), every big event. If you think about it (and I have no idea how you work, but this is how my brain works), you work yourself up to these milestones in life that everyone is supposed to hit, and when it finally happens, you are a bit lost. This is what happened to me when I graduated high school, when I got into my dream uni, and when I got to go on Erasmus (a semester in a different country). So, yeah, I decided it is natural to feel lost, and after a few days of just sitting in the great unknown, my happily ever after of graduate life, I decided to look towards the future, for real. I’ve been putting it off because I’ve been simply afraid to take an actual step, cause that also means I leave my undergraduate studies behind.

I also think I had a problem with moving on because time and the moving of time scares me a bit. Like, what do you mean? I’m 22, an adult in my head, I’m still 17. But anyway, so I decided to take a little time to plan what I want to do, I found the master programs I want to apply to, and I also cleaned my entire laptop, so here’s to new beginnings. I just have to tell you, if you are afraid to jump into the next big thing in your life, it’s okay, I’m too, but if you do, in my experience, afterwards, you can breathe easy again. Most of the time, a little bit of planning and taking care of my future makes me much more grounded and much less scared.

P.S.: I’ve decided to post on Fridays from now on weekly.